I Felt So Empty

by Glen Rudge

I looked at the sky on a cloudy day –
Feeling so lost for I had lost my way.
For some reason and I don’t know why,
I felt that I was living a lie.

I reflected on my life and where I had been –
I thought, could I go back and start over again.
I’d make everything right of this mess I was in –
All my mistakes and all of my sin.

I felt so empty – way deep to the core –
I didn’t think I could take any more.
I found myself kneeling, speaking a prayer –
Not knowing where from, the words were just there.

They weren’t mechanical, for they came from my heart,
Not sure what it was that made me start.

I found my head bowed as I started to pray
Not really knowing just what to say.
But the words, they were coming as I prayed aloud
And looked up as a sunbeam pierced through a dark cloud.

This ray of sunshine; this bright beam of light
Awakened God’s wonders, displaying His might.
This instant awak’ning filled my whole being –
Not just the shaft of light but some Thing unseen.

I closed my eyes and prayed harder still,
Asking forgiveness, as was His will.
Then I thought about Jesus and the stories I’ve heard;
Vowed to read the Bible and bathe in His Word.  

Two weeks passed; I’d been deep in the Book –
Was I unsure of something? I gave a re-look.
My Bible’s now tattered but I’ve been made whole –
And I prayed and thanked God and gave Him control.

Now I walk with purpose – He’s shown me the way;
In all of His righteousness I plan to stay.
To this day I’ve found peace that comes from above
Bestowed only in grace with His blessings of love.